Faith in Ourselves

Some days our faith in ourselves is shaken and strength is nearly impossible yet we find it deep within ourselves. Rise to the challenge today can bring.

Misplaced Emotions

Today I'm sad. I'm sad for many different reasons. The main one was the loss of my current relationship. It was simple, but in the end we were both missing something we both needed from another, but we couldn't get from each other. It was a decision we both reached together and there's no hard feelings, which is rare for me. Now I just feel lost. I don't adapt to change very well. The gypsy in me wants to go on a new adventure, but can't decide a new direction for me and mine. Today I cry and wallow a bit. Tomorrow I'm going to say goodbye to a dear aunt for her time in this world is coming to an end. Now I feel a tantrum coming on. When do I get my chance? When do I get my happy ending?

Bright Tomorrows

I sit here today and I'm simply amazed at the changes one year can bring in my life. In 2016 I was brought to the lowest I've ever been before. I refuse to put myself in that position again. 2017 is restoring my hope for a brilliant future for my children and myself. I know I'm not satisfied with the way my life is now and I want more for my future. Clearly I can see the aspects of my life that I don't enjoy and plan to make changes to alter them. This year I see with such clarity that family isn't blood shared, but rather the tears, hopes, and fears we share with those we are closest to. For the the sisters who have come into my life I am truly blessed to have them. The man in my life places no expectations on me and I expect nothing from him. We enjoy each day we have with each other. For me I know we are not promised anything in this works. All we have is this moment and what we do with it is entirely up to us.

A New Day Dawns

As I sit here this morning, I'm reflecting on how this year has been thus far. I have made it a wee bit past the half way point and I must say this year has sucked in epic proportions. Some of the reasoning behind this years chaos was beyond my control. Others was because I made choices with the best of intents, and apparently I make poor decisions with my life or I'm not listening to the ones greater than myself are telling me.

I made the decision to relocate my family with the best of intentions. Everything blew up in my face. Now not only do I have financial issues, but I have legal dramas. To best sum it up nothing has went as planned.

Now I find myself needing to regroup and figure out just where I'm supposed to be. In my heart I know it's not here, because the chaos in my life has increased rather than decreasing. How does one know what the right path in life is?