Misplaced Emotions

Today I'm sad. I'm sad for many different reasons. The main one was the loss of my current relationship. It was simple, but in the end we were both missing something we both needed from another, but we couldn't get from each other. It was a decision we both reached together and there's no hard feelings, which is rare for me. Now I just feel lost. I don't adapt to change very well. The gypsy in me wants to go on a new adventure, but can't decide a new direction for me and mine. Today I cry and wallow a bit. Tomorrow I'm going to say goodbye to a dear aunt for her time in this world is coming to an end. Now I feel a tantrum coming on. When do I get my chance? When do I get my happy ending?