Thursday, September 28, 2017

Changes or Chances

Why do people seek to hide things or deceive me? Do they not realize I sense the truth before I hear it? I feel a change in the air. In some ways it will be a positive change, yet in other ways it will complicate my life. I just wish people had the nerve to be upfront with me.I'm ready for the changes for they are new chances in the making.

Wednesday, September 27, 2017

Maternal Guilt

As parents how many times do we need that break from our children? This past weekend I took a break from my children and my life. While I was gone through a chain of circumstances my princess was injured and was rushed to the hospital. I couldn't get there in time. My child cried for me and I wasn't there. My heart shattered in a million of pieces and I feel that I failed her in so many different ways. On the positive note I was able to open my eyes to see what is really around me and know what is truly valuable.

Traitorous Friend

She calls herself a friend yet she betrays me every chance she gets. She says she's a friend yet she won't stand against someone who does me wrong. She says she's got my back yet she keeps secrets of other's betrayals and misdeeds. Anything that isn't healthy is toxic and she's toxic in my life.

Wednesday, May 3, 2017

Sometimes "Fuck It" Says It All

The most common lie we are told is only three small words: I love you. Though I'm aware there are many different ways to love, our words are pronounced by our actions. I hear those words from friends yet there's no action behind them. When in need I'm forced to figure it out on my own. Fuck it, I'll do it myself. Then there's the love of family. They say I love you and I feel that's more out of obligation than out of true feelings. Fuck it, I don't need you. I've survived for over 39 years without you or your emotional support. Today I've come to the realization I don't need anyone. I've got this shit. I'll figure it all out alone. I don't need anyone. Fuck it, I'm a shield maiden and my gods give me the strength to do it on my own.