Turning the Page for the Next Chapter

Since my last major breakup, my life hasn't felt like my own. The woman who once wanted attention and affection just wants to be left alone. I hate the thought of someone touching me. I cringe when the phone alerts me to a call or text. I always wonder, "What is going to be expected of me?" or "Are they expecting me to do something?" In short I just wish the world would leave me alone and go away. Because of this phase of my life I know I need a change. I have made the decision to relocate my children and myself to another state for a fresh start.Every day I second guess that decision. I spoke with a friend and he accused me of running away again. I denied it, but upon some reflection, I can see that he was correct. Even though he was right doesn't mean that this decision is wrong. My children and I live in a bad neighborhood with shootings and such. They need this change also for safety reasons. I believe that they can thrive in this new location. We will be closer to friends and family. Maybe in this new location I can find my place in this world. Today I feel confident that this is the right choice for us. Georgia here we come, ready or not!!!!!!

Our Newest Addition

The other day the kids in the apartment  complex told me that there was a baby kitten out there that the other kids were being mean to. I told the kids to bring the baby to me. I didn't realize just how small this baby would be. The eyes are barely open and hasn't been weaned yet. So every hour we feed and clean the baby. I think we needed it as much as it needed us.

The pack of smokes was used to show the size of the baby.

Struggles

Some days the struggle is so real.

When Is Enough Enough?

In the beginning he told me that he loved me every chance he got. It would fill my heart until I feared it would burst. Near the end of the relationship he'd tell me that he hated me and worked that he had never met me. These declarations would have "I love you" minutes after he'd tell me I needed to go, that he was done with me. I stayed much longer than I should have. Enough was enough when he made threats against my offsprings. I packed up everything that was mine. I thought that would be the end of our story, but our story had an afterword. He would contact me with words of love and devotion. Every attempt I made to thwart him was blocked by a new sternly of his to contact me. When will he learn that he killed any love I could have for him? At what point will he comprehend that enough is enough and allow me to rebuild my life?