38 Special

Today is my birthday. It didn't start out as I envisioned it would. No sweet kisses. No coffee in bed. I made a choice that eliminated this possibility for me. I chose my children and I over a life of mental abuse and utter chaos. I chose to go back to a simple life with just my kids and I. I have no regrets other than I didn't do it sooner. Today will be a new starting point of my life. I will take back my power which was taken from me. I will live my life to the best of my ability. I will become like the phoenix and rise from the ashes and rebuild from the floor up.

My Ashes

I have spent so much time lately wrapped in self pity. I have made a lot of poor choices and have since punished myself for being human and making them. I have allowed little things to tip the scales to a dark place. Instead of counting the blessings placed before me I have seen the darkness. Sometimes it is easier to see the darkness versus the light. someone once told me that when one keeps making the same mistake over and over, it is no longer a mistake it is a choice. I have made some choices and those choices have hurt others. I have paid a small price for my role in that. I have lost people that have meant the world to me. I don't plan to remain in the down position. Like the Phoenix I plan to rise from the ashes and make a better life for me and those around me. Will you be there to support me or have I pushed you too far back? I am not perfect. I am human. In short I am perfectly imperfect.

Me Today

I am blessed beyond measure. I have a good man and a great family. Life is only getting better and better.